Have you ever felt very down some days when you start to think bout ur life...and sometimes....its just so....saddening? Well...today has been an odd day....i find myself feeling sad bout my life...i mean...come on...i'm one of the lowest in my class for my exams...thats one...two...im the target of insults...from my so called 'friends'. Sometimes i know they are jokin...but it is still annoying...it may be funny then...but now it doesn't seem to be anymore...but...if i get sad or upset at what they say...i get accused of being emotional...and sensitive...when sometimes...they behave exactly the same...and also...having the feeling of being left out...'friends' who don't tell u things anymore....when they'd rather talk to other people than to u....well i mean...ok..i can understand...maybe im not a good person to socialize with...too loud maybe? too annoying? too crazy? too moody? ohh well...but yea...i dont think i have much in common with many people...hehehe...but...what to do? The teachers despise me....Pn. Jamalia.....Mr. Sheat.....Mrs. Lee....Cik Zainab....most of them la...haih....well...its not very nice to wake up everyday knowing that people don't really like you and enjoy your company but they pretend that they do...don't get me wrong...im not saying this about everyone...its just how i feel....i know....some people who see this post are gonna say im so sensitive...or little bit only like that or so emo....or u know? well...forgive me for sharing too much personal info...today im in the low-spirited mood....<: (
Looking around...and you see all your friends...moving up....improving...getting on with their lives...so many people improving....in their exams...sports....prefectship...all those stuff la...and you look at me...im actually considered a loser if you look at it from a certain point of view...i know its my fault for all of this but...hehehe...well...i have nothing to say about my sports life....my exam results over the years arent that great either...i wasnt nominated for probation....which is ok i guess...the teachers don't like me...even worse...my friends...well...i HOPE they actually like me...JY thinks my life is so sad...chasing after one girl all the time...and not getting anywhere...im sure there are a few who agree with him...hahah...oh well...u all should just MYOB.
Anyway,
Conclusion: Shen Jin is a loser. =(
And i'm sure there are gonna be lotsa people agreeing with this conclusion..heheheh..oh well...life is like that...guess i have to get on with life eh? hahah...
Moving on....today was an OKAY day la....started off with maths...got called to stand up for talking...together with beatrice and mei yen....hahah...then found out i didnt do my homework...vivek, shafik, yu shen, jc, kah may, arizz. riza, and more la...all didnt do so we were chased out of the class to stand at the foyer and finish of our work..ehehe...that was quite and interesting start of the day. Then....we went on to bio class....learnt a new chapter...CELL DIVISION. Beatrice was so excited...and so was I...so many things to ask....but can only learn in form 5....so cik zakiah wouldn't tell us...hhhaaha...then went for break...makan twisties...so nice...drank two cans of coffee...hehehe...after break...CHEMISTRY!!! It was ok...Mr. Sheat is quite funny nowadays la...everyone thinks he has a thing for beatrice...hehe...his stories bout himself are quite interesting...hehehe....but anyway...went for lunch....sat down at a table with bea, annabelle, and yun-ni....hahaha...chatted with yun and all...talked bout silly things...then bell rang...and we went up for maths....again! =) I enjoy maths period...the class is one of the coldest...and we get to talk and discuss and all....maths is fun...wasn't very hyper during that time...caffiene ran out i think...so...was just doing my maths work...something i know is hard to believe....but i did...yu shen and vivek were being crazy and annoying...hahah....beatrice was scaring vivek...and then...the final bell rang. Time to balik....hehehe....well...i walked with Kah May and Tara(sombong=P) for awhile.... then they wandered off somewhere...so i went to the link bridge...put down bag la...all that stuff...then walked around...nothing to do..so i went up to Jayson, Ken, Kif, Kris and Irina....but Ken left...so sad...and kif left later too...so it was me kris jayson and irina....so we decided to go makan ice cream...YUM! heheh...after that balik rumah loh...hehehe....and took shower and now im here...tonight gonna have band practice...and tomorrow is the auditions...im scared not ready...sien sien! T_T
Anyway....im gonna go now...
God Bless,
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